Some people ask me how I find the time to do all the different crafts and projects I have going on. I am running a hand painted glass business, a sugarcrafting business and I am doing this blog, on top of all the other projects and gifts I create for loved ones.
The answer is simple.
I find the time to do these things because at one time, not so long ago, I was in the corporate world where there was nothing to look forward to but the NEXT BIG SALE. THE NEXT BIG CONTRACT and I was only as good as my next quota. Yes, I was in sales. I was darn good at it too, but...
Sometimes I would get home and immediately get in a hot bath and cry. I know that sounds ridiculous and childish, but I did.
I felt like a part of my heart was dying. I would watch Office Space and think, "I have to quit! I have to get out of here! I have to do something else!" But I never did. I felt like I would be wasting my college degree and wasting years spent 'paying my dues'.
My husband could always tell when I needed to create something but could not find the time to do it. One night he brought home a big bottle of red wine and a large canvas and said, "Honey, it is time for you to paint."
I would cram in last minute projects to get my creative fix, but it never fully satisfied my desire to make beautiful things.
It was hard to create something lovely when I felt like crap. I had so many expectations to live up to, so many dreams, so much stuff that in the long run, does NOT matter.
Thankfully, my daughter was born and I could not find it in myself to go back to work. I just could not leave her for a job I hated!
I kissed the corporate world good-bye, OK, it was not a kiss, it was more like a KICK and I started my new life. Free of expectations from anyone but my husband and my daughter to be a great mom.
It was so liberating!!
And now that my kids are a bit older and more self-sufficient I can finally really CREATE. Once I got started, I could not stop. Years of pent up creativity are now pouring out and I am learning so many new things.
I have no idea if I will be any kind of success at this. I have no clue if I will gain any sort of fame for what I do, but that does not matter.
My heart is finally happy and when I take hot baths, it is to relax and recharge for my next creative adventure.
No more tears!
Happy Crafting!
18.8.11
An Explosion of Creative Energy
Posted by Sonja Petrik - The Borrowed Brushstroke at 1:51 PM
Labels: stay at home moms
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